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Poem Number One: Without you

Sometimes you surprise me,
a hug, sudden warmth,
evolving me into such perfect place,
where everything is fine and ,
you're happy and I'm happy.

But once you leave through that door,
giving me your back I know,
that everything it was was an illusion,
one little one that made my world be a lie.

I wish you'd never go,
you'd stay here in our bed,
with me in your arms under the blanket,
secrets shared and bodies together,
us being one and only one being.

But every time you leave,
every second from that moment,
tears fall to the floor,
regrets arise from the bottom,
and I'm sure that it'll never happen again,
I reassure myself that I'm not going to let it happen,
yet it happens again, it goes round and round.

Round and round without stop,
you leave and I fall,
you come and I arise,
I know that I love you,
but is it love when I watch you go?
When you leave without watching back,
to see me crumble down,
just because you're not here.

I loathe to be this weak,
this is not me,
and I know you understand,
that you've made me this way,
I want to go back,
to the happy days where we were fine
everything was perfect and the sun was up in the sky

But I am standing up on my own,
for the first time since you're gone,
and going to become someone new,
and make a better future,
without you.

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Poem Number two: For me

I open my eyes
I try to believe that
you'll soon be back
the hope is slowly fading
but it is there

you are my drug
my only vice
without you
I don't know how to survive

I thought that you would always be mine
I thought that you would protect me
But where are you now
Why have you left me

I won't cry because that would be giving up
I ignore the salty tears running down
those cheeks used to your touch
some passing my rosy frown

I don't,

I won't,

I'm waiting

still for you,

believing,

that you,

are coming,

back soon

for me.

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Poem number Three: I have done it again

Hey,
I have done it again.
I have let myself down ,
once again.

I find myself in this place
with no light and no one,
and I feel so alone,
but I know it's for the best.

The mistakes I have made,
the lies I have told,
everything that has happened,
is my fault.

The time,
that has passed,
the tears that have fallen down,
the hurt I have caused,
everything I regret.

I wish,
I could take back those things,
and start all over again,
with everyone and everything,
but I have lost this game already.

Hey,
I have done it again,
I have fallen to the deepest hole
and I don't seem to find a way out,
will you help me climb up?

I know,
I have hurt you before,
but I wish you can,
forgive me.

The mistakes I've made,
they're in the past, right?
You've told me to forget,
but have you done so?

The time,
has flown by too fast,
and there are things
we can't take back,
but how about we start
all over again?

I wish,
your words were true,
and that you truly feel this way
because if not my heart would break,
and I would never be the same.

Hey,
I have done it again,
but you saved me from this hell,
and forgave my sins.

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Poem number Four: I will always love you

I know things are hard to forget.

We didn't exactly end well,
I know you must hate me now, you had
loved such wonderful
lies that escaped my lips every time I spoke.

And even if you will forget,
loving you was the best thing ever has happened to me.
We, us, it was perfect,
and I must tell
you, that our memories are
something tattooed in my heart.

Love, so hard to explain,
obvious from outside but hard to see,
very pretty, no beautiful,
everyone feels it at one point in their life.

You are the person I truly have loved
only my mistakes have pulled us apart
unique and lovely you were, but you're gone now.

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Poem number Five: Falling in love again?

You smile kindly,
I blush slightly,
why does my stomach feel weird?

It has been a while since I felt this way,
a while since I cared,
but you have made everything different,
you have made me change

I don't know what it is about you,
what's so special,
my friends ask,
but I just know that you are yourself,
and that that is all that I care about.

You make silly jokes,
you make me smile,
I don't know why I even giggle with you,
but it's something that just kind of happens.

I want to believe,
that this will last forever,
love has shown me before,
that things don't last,
but I don't want to believe that.

I just know,
want to believe,
wish it is true,
but I might
be falling in love again,

And this time with you.

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I'm a dreamer

I'm a dreamer,
My fantasies don't become reality.
I just hide myself from the world,
to not be disappointed by the sight
of all my dreams shattering down.
To not see,
what really happens.

I'm a dreamer,
I hide from reality.
I just don't know what to do,
nothing ever goes my way.
All I can do is dream,
Hope, wish,
for a better today,
yet it still disappoints me.
The dream doesn't become true.

And just a dreamer I stay,
without the world to see,
what I truly want
or know
what I truly think.

Dreams
won't
ever
be
true.

Just dreams they stay,
Inside my head.

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Be you

No one knows you
Because you don't want to be known
The pain is in your heart
But you won't feel it.

You want to be noticed,
But that's something you don't even acknowledge
You want to be known by who you are
But it's not like you'll ever say it out loud.

When you were child you suffered a lot
You felt excluded, left alone.
That's why you build up a façade
To deny who you really are
To act normal, even when you're not.
To be accepted, even if you know it won't last for long.

The only thing you want is to receive love,
But even when you do receive it, you won't know
Love is something unknown for you
And keeping that fake you won't help you.

Maybe you want to be loved,
But is it really worth being loved by someone who doesn't know you?
Is it really worth all that lying?
Is it really worth all that fakes smiles, fake pouts and fake expressions?
Is it really worth all this suffering?

Even when you know it won't be real,
Even when you know that you'll be loved, but at the same time you won't
The one that they'll love is not the real you
You won't be happy with that, I know
Why can't you see that I'm here
Stop suffering, you have me
Show your real 'me' because I'll still be with you
Be real, again.
Be you.

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Masochism

An agonizing cry of pain makes its way out of my throat.
You smile knowing the hurt that overwhelms me.
After every punch, every blow, a passionate kiss follows.
People don't understand us, our love.

Push me against the wall, tell me I'm yours.
Bite my neck, and prove me so.
Then push me away, away from you.
Call me ugly, like you always do.

I feed of your lies and you of my pain,
these cries make the feeling perfect.
Make me yours, without me wanting,
tell me you're sorry, and do it again.

This is our life, the same old routine,
hurting ourselves more without the hope of escaping.
These are our lies, the same old mistakes,
without amend, we go further into hell.

Why are we like this?
Why can't we stop?
But the pleasure is what we love.

I can't stop this,
I can't stop this masochism
that goes on deep inside our souls.

» My collected poetry these are all of my published poems please read comment enjoy